I remember standing in the street shortly after beginning fertility treatments. I’d taken a break from my pity party to go out and get the mail. A neighborhood Mom was jumping up and down like a lunatic; screaming and clapping. Her daughter was riding a bike without training wheels for the very first time. All I could do was stare. I was paralyzed.
After I’d gone back inside, the neighbor called. I didn’t answer the phone. I couldn’t talk to her. I didn’t know what to say. As she spoke into our answering machine, explaining the excitement of watching her daughter ride her bike for the very first time; she apologized for her behavior. Clearly, she had no idea why I was staring at her. She assumed I thought she was nuts; no idea that I’d stood there, dumbfounded, wondering if I’d ever have that moment of my own. There was not judgement on my end. Simply a desperate wanna-be-Mom who had invaded her privacy and stolen some her moment for myself.
What was supposed to be a simple walk to the mailbox turned into a painful reminder of what everyone else around me seemed to have. Unfortunately, for someone struggling with infertility, these moments are everywhere. Babies and parents surround you. In magazines, in cars, in the grocery store, on TV. It is hard to escape. Hard to find a place where you feel safe from the endless reminders of what you don’t have. What you can’t seem to achieve no matter how hard you wish and pray. What’s worse, you can’t tell your best friend/sister/old college roommate that you are unable to share her enthusiasm for her children.
I wouldn’t wish infertility on my worst enemy. It changes you. It paralyzes you. You want to move forward with your life, your plans. But you can’t. What if next month is the month you get pregnant?
Of course, with hindsight, we have clarity. I’m excited to share my knowledge of nutrition and my clarity from experience with you. But, first, I’m going to tell you the whole story. Even better, I’m going to let you watch me heal. Sure, I’ve healed my body…but the emotional scars still run deep.
Please stay tuned if you want to watch MY journey. I’ve got some really juicy stuff to share with you.
If you are suffering quietly with infertility, please contact me today for a completely PRIVATE, confidential and FREE, 20 minute breakthrough session: https://my.timedriver.com/TZMVM or call for an appointment (301) 565-4924.
